Birthday Goals 2012

Today is my 25th birthday. I'm not afraid of getting older but I'm afraid of being old. Does that make sense? One of my life goals is to make sure I use my life wisely. To make sure I am always on track I give myself daily, weekly, yearly goals. Not on paper necessarily but in my mind. Here's the list of things I would like have accomplished before I turn 26.
1. Read 2-3 books a month
2. Finish the boys baby books
3. Set up my etsy/online shop.
4. Get another 2 personal training clients.
5. Receive my Nutrition and Wellness Certification.
6. Aim to Eat clean and balanced.
7. Go on an awesome 6th anniversary trip.
8. Sew pillows for our bedroom.
9. Learn to quilt and make a quilt for Cohen's big boy bed.
10. Run at least one 10k race perhaps even a half marathon!

I'll start with 10 goals and I'll go from there.
I'll get back to my coffee and kitkat cheesecake now:)

writing the truth (a ramble)

At night, I sit in my bed, pen in hand. My hand trembles with the words it wants to write. The blank page screaming at me. What's so scary about writing something on paper? Terror grips me. I want to write. I want to    document my feelings..my thoughts. The truth is raging beneath my skin. I don't think I'm hiding anything big. Sometimes its just frightening to believe that am.
There's the issue of heart, and who has it. Contentment. Perfection. Responsibility. These are things that everyone thinks about.
I'm given one life. Just one. Then I will be judged according to what I did with that life. What if I'm not doing everything I can?
Seeing the words on the screen or on paper..that's forever. What if other people think the way I'm thinking? I hope..I'm not the only one.