Well..today is the day..Cohen is just over 6 months old..and I've decided to stop giving him any breastmilk. I am feeling so guilty about this but I think its time.
When he was almost two months old I was admitted to the hospital with a staff infection and mestitis. The end result was that my left breast had to lanced and drained due to a severe infection and my milk never returned. My right breast was still producing but hardly anything at all. I was nursing and feeding him formula for every feeding. When he cut two teeth and learned how to bite and I stopped nursing him altogether..I figured he wasn't getting much anyways and I didn't want to be a chew toy.
SO..up until today I've been pumping every few hours and then topping up his bottles of formula with breastmilk. I know its good for them but I don't think the amount that he gets is really going to help him.
It will be nice not to have to worry about pumping and everything...but I loved being able to supply my baby with "nature's food", whatever little bit it was. I know I probably could have seen myself pumping for another year but I know the longer I do the harder it will be for me to stop.
Nothing about my post natal recovery was good. I had planned to breastfeed until 9 months for sure so all this is just hard to swallow. I feel like I'm letting myself down. Wish me luck!
1 comment:
don't feel bad Tamara, and definitely don't be hard on yourself! You did an AWESOME job by continuing to pump, especially after having the infection. He's been getting some for 6 months, and that's a lot! It's maybe not as long as you hoped, but if you look at it this way, it's twice as long as I could nurse Simon, and much longer than a lot of other wee ones get.
Let this be a positive thing for you, and know that Cohen will feel your relief of the "pumping duty".
You're an awesome mom!!
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